I hear those voices. The ones that dance through my head. One voice says, “You’ll never be good enough.” Another voice says, “You’re worthless.” Still another says, “They will never accept you like you are. You’ve got to change.” At night I hear the one that says, “You should have done more today. Worked harder. What is wrong with you?” Do you hear them too? They dance around in my mind connecting their words like feet connect steps in a ballet. However, when I find myself relying on God, instead of the praise or condemnation of others, I am suddenly in step with Him. And we dance. And he holds me close and we dance. We dance through life together, leaping over the hard stuff. We twirl around the mean words others say, and focus on each other as we go. As I learn to dance with my eyes locked on his, suddenly life isn’t so hard, because I’m following HIS lead….and all the sudden the empty places in my life are being filled and the voices go away…..all the sudden it’s not about my performance….
“It’s not about performance. It’s about relationship.” ~Wise words from Pastor Ryan Webster, First Assembly of God, Larned, KS. These words have taken root in my heart. God is not impressed by what we can DO for him. He’s more interested in our relationship WITH him. He’s standing there holding out his hand asking us to dance….I’m learning that while my competitive nature seeks to perform, it’s not the performance that fills my heart. It’s the relationship! And when I focus on the relationship, life becomes a dance instead of me trying to impress him with what I can DO. “Saying yes to God is a lot more about being than doing. It is choosing who I will worship and then depending on God to give me the strength to follow through.” (pg. 86) (This principle applies in life with our horses too!)
Lysa reminded us in this chapter that we tend to sense empty places in life when, “…the busyness of life has crowded out my quiet time with Jesus. When I have not spent enough time allowing the Lord to refuel and refill me, I forget that this is not my real home. When my soul gets down, these places can be distracting and difficult. And sometimes the reality is we feel hurt and discouraged.” Can any of you relate?
As we work our way through this book, I’m being convicted about how I spend my time. You? It’s amazing how we find time to do the things we want to do……
In the comment section below, please share how/when you make time to read your Bible, pray, and/or worship. Have you been convicted about your time? If so, what steps do you plan to take toward changing your schedule?