How many times have you dropped the ball? Maybe it wasn’t acutually a ball….if you’re like me maybe it yelling at your kids, or being so angry with your husband. Maybe is riding into the show pen and tanking a ride. Or perhaps it was a ball…..an eposide in your life that you repeat over and over in your mind, wishing all the while that you would have reacted differently. Wondering if you’d just done A, how your life would be different.
God is NOT surprised by our mistakes. He doesn’t love us less, and while we stuggle with forgiving ourselves and getting past certain things, God never does. He promised that “If we confess our sin, he is faithful and just to forgive our sins, and cleanse us from all unrightousness.” 1 John 1:9 He also tells us that “…as far as the east is from the west, so he has removed our transgressions from us.” Psalm 103:12. It’s not our job to hold onto mistakes. We are supposed to turn them over to God and LEAVE them with him.
I grew up in a First Assembly of God church. My father was a decon, my mother taught every Sunday School class known to man. We were in church on Sunday morning, Sunday night, and Wednesday night. My mother read devotions to us every morning before school at the breakfast table. When I was 19 I got pregnant and I wasn’t married. If I could put into words the pain I have carried around for the past 20 years, maybe you could understand. I love my daughter very much and I can’t imagine my life without her, but it’s been a long road. There are days I feel like it’s in the past-over and done. But don’t think for one second that Satin doesn’t use it against me. Don’t think he doesn’t whisper in my ear, “You’re not worthy to tell other people about Christ”, “Look what you did! You’re trash.” “You’re not good enough to serve God”. I could type on and on about the whispers from the enemy I hear because of a mistake. Over the years I’ve learned, however, that when those whispers begin, I just whisper back-“Yes, look at her. She is the greatest mistake I’ve ever made.” And she is! Was God surprised? No….I happen to believe that he planned her life. Had I not made that “mistake” how would my life look different today? I don’t know. And I don’t care. God has blessed me with a wonderful husband that loves my daughter like his own, and has since she was 2 years old. What Satin intended for harm, God used for good.
What mistake have you made that haunts you? I know it’s hard for us to wrap our minds around a love that would forgive even our greatest mistake. It’s hard to really understand why God would continue to love us when we’ve messed up so bad. But Ladies and Gentleman…. HE DOES!
I’d like to encourage you today to find some quiet time and just spend it with the Lord. Talk to him about your mistake(s) and let go. I promise-the peace that will flood your soul will be incredible. Just as we’ve been instructed to forgive others, we must also learn to forgive ourselves……